1985 index

 


This is m daily journal from the year 1985 -- and oddly transformative year when the course of my life took a number of strange and fundamental twists. These are very honest accounts, and so many of the names have been changed to protect the innocent


Four years later 01/01/1985


The early morning charade among macho men January 4, 1985


Well-paid wage slave? 01/04/85


That dog gone trip to Texas did it January 6, 1985


Seeking out our old Marxist professor January 7, 1985


Words of love 1/9/85


End days at Dunkin for finisher Mickey January 10, 1985


In the midst of confusion January 11, 1985


Merry ho ho January 12, 1985


MLK gets a holiday January 15, 1985


Is Pauly a cult leader? January 16, 1885


Looking for salvation January 17, 1985


A bad day all around January 22, 1985


Pauly as Satan’s child? January 26, 1985


Pizzas in a donut shop January 27, 1985


A note from the underground January 30, 1985


Right and left are exactly the same February 6, 1985


The power elite in Willowbrook Mall February 8, 1985


The state of exhaustion February 11, 1985


Back and forth up and down February 19, 1985














































































Breaking on through to the other side June 24, 1985




















































































The car on the car port like a dead fish November 4, 1985

A radical under every bed November 5, 1985

Stuck in a booth in Secaucus November 6, 1985

A break in life November 8, 1985

Newark protest against Apartheid Nov. 10, 1985

Strong faith may not be enough Nov. 11, 1985

Learning the hard way November 13, 1985

A change of perspective Nov. 14, 1985

Prophets of environmental doom? Nov. 16, 1985

I should have known better with a girl like that Nov. 18, 1985

Everybody is expendable November 20, 1985

Phil’s schemes November 21, 1985

Suspicious activities November 22, 1985

Where in the world is John M anyway? November 23, 1985

The day she left Nov. 25, 1985

Holidays as mileage markers of pain November 29, 1985

Too far to the right? November 29, 1985

The Cool Kid November 30, 1985

Demons of the unconscious December 1, 1985

Nothing ever changes; everything does December 2, 1985

Dying to get in December 6, 1985

Irrational acts Dec. 7, 1985

Like father, like son Dec. 8, 1985

Evoking Christmas in a radical era December 10, 1985

An old nemesis December 11, 1985

A new Christmas tradition December 13, 1985

Pursuit of greatness Dec. 14, 1985

Nash Park Dec. 15, 1985

Recalling those last days with the Shayds Dec. 16, 1985

Phil freaks out! December 17, 1985

Cynthia Dec. 18, 1985

Making progress I’m still alive Dec. 19, 1985

Half way there? Dec. 21, 1985

What about that old tape of ours? Dec. 22, 1985

One last gesture Dec. 23, 1985

A Christmas Tradition December 26, 1985

Woody Allen slept here? Dec. 27, 1985

Other times on Bertrand’s Island Dec. 28, 1985

Looking back on 1985 Dec. 30. 1985

Better than 1984 was Dec. 31, 1985


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